Category Archives: Control

The Perfect Life

You’ve created a nice life for yourself.  Clean, organized, structured.  Everything in its place.  The career, the house, the car, the trips.  I don’t fit into that tidy little box.  I’m a little too… organic.  The dirt under my fingernails.  … Continue reading

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My Practice is Nothing

Doing Nothing is difficult.  It feels uncomfortable.  But I’m committed to my practice. Sitting back and doing Nothing allows me to see where my tendency to control presents itself.  My tendency to jump in, instead of allowing things to unfold … Continue reading

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Dying Today Revised

Today in meditation I realized that I am dying a little more everyday. I started crying, accepting my own demise. I thought about my mom’s mortality. And how it’s hard for her to accept. I had a better understanding of … Continue reading

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Control and Swimming in the Sea of Life

Control is an illusion. We have very little control.  There are an infinite number of circumstances that can intersect or intervene with our plans. I don’t know if John Lennon came up with it or not, but I’m going to … Continue reading

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